Saturday, 19 July 2014

Rant: Being Alone



Today I thought I'd talk about a bit of a strange subject; being alone; in the general sense of the word. As someone who enjoys being alone, I wonder if anyone else does too? 

First of all, I'd like to point out that there is a massive difference to being alone and being lonely; it's perfectly okay to experience both but what I'm talking about today isn't feeling lonely, it's the time spent alone and how I've come to crave it and enjoy it

I don't want this to make me sound like some kind of hermit who spends 24 hours of each day in her room, but I do enjoy spending time by myself. It's not that I don't enjoy others company - I certainly do. I love seeing friends and spending time with them whether it's in their/my house or going for lunch and shopping - that kind of company is awesome, and important too. I also love spending time with my family; I still live at home and we are a very close-knit family who enjoy one anothers company and I'm glad that I don't have an entire house to myself as it would feel empty and boring. BUT, I like my own space and I need it. Sometimes I just need to be alone just for clarity and to feel calm - it doesn't mean I don't like spending time with others - it just means that I enjoy having a break from it

I love spending time alone, I like the peace and the quiet that comes along with it. I like sitting on the edge of my bed and just thinking of nothing. I like sitting at my desk and throwing myself into my blog with no distractions. I like sitting in a cafe on my own enjoying some kind of coffee and mooching the free wifi. I like shopping on my own with no stress over who wants to go in which shop. I like walking to the shops on my own, taking the long way around and just looking at the trees. I like just sitting on my own and doing whatever I want to do and thinking about whatever I want/need to think about. 

I don't crave constant company, but I appreciate it and enjoy it when I have it. I don't hate being alone unless it's at night time and there are creepy noises. I don't  need to be in a relationship to feel happy with myself and I don't need to be surrounded by people all day every day. What I do need is a couple of great friends, my family and myself. And all of those three groups need some dedicated time - that means friends time, family time and ME time. So, if I don't want to join you on your weekend full of crazy antics or be a constant busy bee on the go, that's okay. If I want to sit in a cafe on my own, that's okay. And, if I enjoy my own company - that's okay too! 

I'm not sure what I wanted to get out of this post, I just felt the need to ramble. It's probably because I went to town a few weeks ago and decided to stop for lunch on my way home in the local pub and I just sat on my own. At first it felt weird, made me slightly anxious that people would think I was some kind of weirdo taking up a table of 4 with no company. But then I just enjoyed it, I had lovely food - of course, checked into the free wifi and had a relaxing 30 minutes of uninterrupted food -- Unless you count the staff who asked me 3 times if everything was okay. They were probably just being polite, because surely it isn't that strange for a girl to sit at a table and eat alone? Is it? 

So I guess what I want to know is, does anyone else enjoy being alone? I do - and it's okay. 


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